This blog has been so neglected. But I just haven’t had anything to write about. I’ve been trying to keep my health stuff on the “other blog” and since it has been taking up so much of my time, and I haven’t had a lot going on, I just haven’t had the motivation I need to write posts here. That needs to change. I need to find more balance in my life and obviously if my focus has been completely on the “other blog” then I’m not balancing very well.
I’ve decided to take on a couple of projects for this blog to chronicle. Hopefully to get me back into the right frame of mind for writing.
Spring Cleaning/Decluttering
It’s still Spring. The first day of Summer isn’t until June 21. So, I figure if I get started on Spring Cleaning before that date, it is still technically Spring Cleaning. I’m going to be using a combination of the Spring Cleaning Party plan on Simple Mom and the “party” variations and tips on Organizing Your Way.
Starting tomorrow, I’ll try to post some before and after photos as I work through each area. We’ll see how it goes.
“Soon-To-Be Niece/Nephew” Baby Blanket
I’m working my way through a blanket for my sister’s baby. She is due at the end of October or beginning of November. She is 40 and this will be her first child. She’s been wanting this for so long and it’s incredibly exciting for her (and really for our whole family). So, I started a blanket for her. It’s a pretty simple pattern but with a rather pretty yarn, and it doesn’t require that I do a whole lot of thinking while I knit. I’m going to try to get some early stage pictures here in the next few days. I’m only about 2/9 the way through it (heh. 9 squares, obviously). We’ll see how the finishing goes, since I’m going to have to sew up all those seems. Should be an interesting learning process.
Posted by Amelia on May 6, 2009 in
photographic state Week Five
1. 29/365: Grumpy’s, 2. 30/365: Minnesota Blue, 3. 31/365: Classic camera of a camera, 4. 32/365: Worry and Obsess, 5. 33/365: daily dose, 6. 33/365: Hennepin Avenue Bridge, 7. 35/365: In the club….
Created with fd’s Flickr Toys.
Week Six
1. 36/365: Counterpart, 2. 37/365: TOO MUCH!, 3. 38/365 Humpty Dumpty Sat On A Wall, 4. 39/365 NE Arts District, 5. 40/365: Beautiful Abigail, 6. 41/365: The Boy, Me, and The Nephew, 7. 42/365: Time to start my seeds!
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Week Seven
1. 43/365: Clean Kitchen!, 2. 44/365: Surprise Garden, 3. 45/365: Neighbor Caprice, 4. 46/365: Home Spa Day, 5. 47/365 Pre Game Drinks, 6. 48/365: LACROSS!, 7. 49/365: Doodling my imminent future
Created with fd’s Flickr Toys.
Week Eight
1. 50/365: The Parking Lot, 2. 51/365: Not a fan of the rain, 3. 52/365: Jell-o shot bullets, 4. 53/365: Uno and Foster Mama, 5. 54/365: Fixin’ the brakes, 6. 55/365: Pure Class, 7. 56/365: Black and white
Created with fd’s Flickr Toys.
Week Nine
1. 57/365: Worst GB Sign photo EVER, 2. 58/365: Off to the laboratory….., 3. 59/365: Post Therapy Flush, 4. 60/365, 5. 61/365, 6. 62/365, 7. 63/365
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Posted by Amelia on Apr 28, 2009 in
Uncategorized So, I had an appointment at MN-COME to follow up on my test results today. The verdict is in. My testosterone was incredibly high. My glucose is out of whack. I had literally not a single drop of Vitamin D in my blood. My vitamin B12 was very low as well. So she added a shit load of medications to my already heavy cocktail.
This is what my new medication regimen looks like:
Morning:
Phentermine 37.5 mg
B-12 15 mcg
Fish Oil 1200 mg
Aldactone 25 mg
Afternoon, just pre-dinner:
Fish Oil 1200 mg
Multi-vitamin
Lexapro 10 mg
Metformin 2000 mg
Aldactone 25 mg
Bedtime:
Valerian Root 450 mg
Melatonin 3 mg
Cymbalta 60 mgs
Klonopin .5 mg
There were no issues with my thyroid function. There are a number of small cysts on the actual thyroid itself. We’re going to keep an eye on those over the next six months or so.
Wow. Supposively all of this will work together to make me a happy, not “tired all the time”, able to process my food correctly, non-panic attack having individual. It will also help the crazy hair growth on my chin and help me lose some weight. And I might even have some energy again. Between this and the eating disorder clinic dietician helping me figure out the food stuff, I might have some semblance of a life ~!
Posted by Amelia on Apr 23, 2009 in
Uncategorized Maybe i’m running out of things to blog about. Maybe I just ran out of things that I feel like anyone wants to hear. I feel like maybe I should just begin a new blog and start talking about the new things that are going on in my life, but then again, this is my life. This blog has been everything that has happened in my life in the last year.
So, now we’re on to the next chapter.
And I just don’t even know where to find the words to do it.
Posted by Amelia on Apr 5, 2009 in
Uncategorized I updated my bio page. It’s a pretty great bio if I do say so myself.
ABOUT THIS WOMAN
I’m watching the final episode of ER. I know I’m a night late, but I hadn’t had a chance to watch last weeks episode first and it was just sitting on the Tivo starring at me, promising that there would be something in the episode that would make the final episode make no sense at all if I didn’t watch it first. So, I waited until W went to bed tonight and started my three hour ER marathon. I’m not goign to make any personal reviews of the show or the finale, other than to say that Ernest Bornine story was absolutely beautiful and it is a shame that the media industry doesn’t realize what an amazing group of actors they are overlooking when they don’t find more work for actors of his age. My life will not be the same. And not in a spiritual or fancy pants way. Just in a real life, this is what I do kind of way. I watch ER. I always have. For fifteen years now, that has been my Thursday nights. So this is definitely going to be a change for me. I’m now three minutes in and I’m already finding myself tearing up a bit.
This weekend we take care of our spring cleaning. The apartment is in dire need of a good deep cleaning now that we have really settled in. I didn’t do much cleaning during the move, since I knew that this would happen now. So I want to clean windows and sills, get the baseboards really cleaned up… The porch deseparately needs to be cleaned out. I think we’re finally going to have to run this last load of empty cardboard moving boxes to the recylcing facility, since it seems like no one really wants them. But oh yes! Spring cleaning *will* happen!
Posted by Amelia on Apr 1, 2009 in
Food is more than fuel!,
Healthy Girl To say that I’ve been a little stressed/depressed/humiliated/obsessed about my recent acceptance of the medical establishments title of “obese” is an understatement. It seems that all I can think about for the past week is my weight. I just about had a breakdown just now when I weighed myself with the Wii twice in five minutes and the second weight was .4 pounds heavier. (I know that using the Wii as a reliable scale is not a good idea in any way.) It was simply the weight that made me panic. Literally, absolutely panic. Can’t breath, heart pounding, elephant standing on my chest panic.
On a number of occasions, I have had therapists or doctors suggest that I might have some sort of eating disorder, but I’ve always written it off. Honestly, who has ever heard of a fat girl with an eating disorder? I always assumed that bulimia was more about the puking, but with the *very* limited amount of research that I have done in the last half an hour, it seems that the compulsive fasting/dieting that I do is considered bulimic behavior as well.
So, yeah, maybe they’re right. There is a lot more to this that I’m not talking about here obviously, but I just wanted to actually put it out ther efor the world. Since I’m finally coming to terms with the weight and my health, and along with that my relationship with nutrition, food, and exercise, it will only be right for me to start being honest wtih the world about it.
Posted by Amelia on Mar 26, 2009 in
Healthy Girl I never realized how much helping out with the photo blog would take up so much of my blogging energy in a day, especially considering that there isn’t much blogging to be done there. Mostly I just upload pictures and copy/paste descriptions and captions. But with 35 women, by the time I get it all finished, it’s usually about an hour and a half all told. So, around the way, I keep running out of steam by the time I get around to this blog.
Today was a big day. I went in to the doctor to talk a bit about my weight issues over the last few years and possibly get a referral to a nutritionist or maybe some suggestions or a calorie guidelines or something. I don’t know. They just always say to talk to a doctor before undertaking any serious decision about your fitness or nutrition. So, I did.
The appointment went nothing as I expected. First off, this happened:
THAT is a tetanus shot. And it is making it very hard for me to do a whole lot with my arm tonight. OUCH. The shot itself was relatively painless, but yikes. Within an hour, my arm was so stiff and tender that lifting it up too high hurts like hell!
The second part is something that is a bit…well it’s hard to swallow. But I guess it’s time for me to take a good strong dose of reality and then do something about it.
I received a referral to the Minnesota Center for Obesity, Metabolism, and Endocrinology. My doctor is is fairly well convinced based on my history that there is something going on beyond me just being a fat girl. Though I’ve tried to say that for a few years, they are just now coming to that conclusion. So, in a few weeks, I head in and hopefully they’ll be able to start figuring things out.
